bathing suit

It’s been 15 days since I last blogged.  This is pretty unusual for me and for no good reason.

I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks.  Nothing.  Nada.  Zero.  Zilch.  I’ve felt so unmotivated lately.  Maybe it’s due to the weather in Jersey lately or maybe it’s because I am lazy.

I feel like a failure especially since my last blog was about not quitting and not giving in to the fear.  I haven’t quit but I’ve allowed the fear to take control.  I fear the new instructors at my gym and now that it’s been 2 weeks I fear that it will hurt or I’ll get nauseous like when I first started.

I’m still eating pretty well and don’t feel that I’ve gained anything but the energy has depleated as well as my self confidence.  Last Friday I went to Atlantic City with my girlfriends and I was just not myself.  I was quiet and overall in a funk.  I wasn’t sure why but thinking back on it I feel like I’ve let myself down.

After work I’m going to hit the boards and get back on track.  Let’s do this!


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