spring lake park

Another year has passed without Sean.  19 years ago today, the age he was when he passed.  It seems like a long time ago but time has passed too quickly.  Some days I think of him a lot and others I feel guilt for not thinking of him more.  Wishing he were here to celebrate the good times, the holidays and to help me get through those tough moments.  In the last year he has missed birthdays, getting to meet my brother’s girlfriend, an amazing family trip to our cousin’s wedding in Colorado, Connor’s first birthday, grandma’s 94th surprise brunch and countless other family events.

To be honest, this is the most difficult blog of the year.  Usually it takes me maybe 30 minutes to write a blog but with this I started it last Thursday, revisited it Sunday and finally finished today.  In the last few years I have found great comfort and a sense of purpose by working with the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.  Participating in their local walks to raise awareness and support has proven to me that I’m not alone.

Keeping in touch with Sean’s friends is also cathartic.  The messages I receive with their memories of him make me laugh because he was funny and make me cry because I miss him.  If I can help raise money to bring awareness and support so no one else has to experience this makes me happy.  Please consider donating to this great organization by clicking here.

beach kevin

christmas familybradley beach

christmas gma mary


8 thoughts on “Another Year Without You Here

  1. It’s be 19 long years …I feel the same way Liz but know that he lives in our hearts. He may not be here physically and i wish he was but I strongly feel he finds a way to send us signs when we need it the most. Miss him love him always I’m thankful that I am still able to have a relationship with you and your family. Know that he was proud of you then and he continues to shine with pride. We should all get together on his birthday next month to have a drink in his honor. Sending you lots of love and hugs … Know that your not alone


  2. I don’t know you but this Saturday will be one year since I lost my husband to suicide (leaving me with our 3 kids ages 4, 6 and 8). Thank you for your post… it is exactly how I feel. And thank you for talking about this topic that so many others are afraid to say out loud. I hope you can find some peace and comfort today and always.

    1. Thank you so much for reading! I can confidently say it does get easier with time but each family gathering and holiday there is always someone missing. I hope you and your children can heal and have rich lives like you all deserve. You are in my prayers in the days ahead.

  3. Those are great pics Liz! Especially that last one w Grandma Mary at Christmas – “Kev-bo” looks like a baby doll. hahaha… But I think a more accurate account of Sean is two above, with him making the face in the family pic. 😉

    Mike and fam

    1. Thank you so much for reading! Remembering the good times is so important because our loved ones are here for a reason and that is to make us laugh, teach us things and love us. Those memories help us keep them in our hearts after we lose them and carry on their humor and love.

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